Thursday, November 26, 2009

What I'm thankful for

So... since I started to check on twitter and subscribe to tweets of good life or how-to-lead-a-happy-life or something like that... I read it's tweet to day that told me/says that to have a happy life or to prove that you got a happy life or something, you gotta mention 100 things you're grateful for, and since I'm an ungrateful son of a bitch that's trying to lead a new positive attitude towards life for my longevity and bla...bla...bla... I figured couldn't hurt to try and if possible to keep a bright ,smile, and shiny, attitude especially since lately I just keep pissing of people no matter what I said..., so a nice change of view and "scenery for my life would not be such a bad idea....

So, I'm gonna do 100 and each must be a completely different from the others since I can't just say thankful for Kriten Stewart, Peter Facinelli, Selena gomez, and that coounts as 3, should only coun;t as one for a category... so this is gonna be long and most probably boring, but I do it for the sake of changing myself into a grateful son of a bitch for once in my life, so definitely didn't have to read or anything because I did all of this for me, myself, and I.



1. I'm thankful for all the meals I have eaten today, they were all sugoi-desu,my stomach feels like exploding much.

2. For the joy of fatherhood(well unclehood,actually) from my baby(not my actual baby) Dexton Jax Djunaidy and My roomies/his parents,it was unbelievable and unforgettable,doubtful that I will forget my first time babysitting as a an actual adult, definitely will brace me for fatherhood someday in the future

3. Having a blog,twitter,youtube, and definitely facebook to make me able to get my mind out to the "world" and especially keeping in touch with those people I caee about.

4. Having a blackberry/ipod/laptop and other electronics that allows me to connect to internet, it's no longer a necessity, but a need in my life

5. Thankful for having great roomies, and my baby plus etc to share this thankful day with

6. Thankful for having a car, a HONDA and a CRV especially that managed to drive me to SFSU that was 45minutes away from where I live and yet doesn't give a hole on my spending for gasoline,if I were in sing would have definitely take public transport, so I'm very glad to have an accessible transportation while I was here in USA

7. Thankfui for $y family who pushed....no forced me to come to USA and made me reliaze that my thoughts are amazingly accurate about Hating this place in the first place.

8. Thanful for this part of painful dreadful journey in my life, to make m$e realize what I had before at home were so much better and nothing can compares to then.

9. Thxful 4 all the exp I got that made me, wiser,bitter,grunt,realist, and individualist who I have never relate myself as.

10. Definitely for the fact that only 8months left toward my commitment in USA and after that would be the freedom, and joy to know I would never come back for any reason at all (well most reasons lah,since The Fray said," Never said Never")

11. For the family that I hava,since there have all been there for me:
+my dad-forcing his "best" decisions for me;
+my-mom-defending me when times comes where I can't defend myself;
+my bro-denoya for reminding me spontanity and passion is something good to have in my life; +mybro-A2 to let me know when I have cross the humanilty line that for me seems so blurred/invisible most of my life

12. For my God family:
+my god-mom for someone who shows caring in a way that touched my heart and show me the term caring much deeper than anyone;
+my God-dad for being able to be someone that I can speak freely to, without judgement, and listens;
+my god-sis, Cessa for making me feeled like I'm not alone in being the oldest of all,sincew she's the only female granddaughter;
+my godsis-sien for able to critic me of evewry single action that was unclear even to myself sometimes;
+my godsis ting-for reminding me that what almost-having- a lil-sister would truly-most-likely-be-like;
+my god bro ivan; for reminding me that innocense of a boy isn't something that will last in time and yet also needed to see thing clearly in thw world

13. For my cousins each one especially unique and amazing and change my life/ way I look/face life all 15 of them excluding my god-siblings:
+Juwina: for arguing and debating on individualist vs communist,huge vs small; USA vs Singapore, which leads to a lot of verbal arguin and lots of common misunderstanding that made me realize where I am "standing" at.
+King2: for letting me know how a creepy guy feels like, and very grateful for it that I no longer manage to see on how creepy someone would be, but giving me the courage to try understand psycho people mind works a bit differently and if you're able to understand them might be there's hope for me to make them understand how to open themselves to other pattern of thoughts.
+Wiz: for listening sometimes and understanding as well when I share my thought with you bout well almost everything
+Ning2: for being the imaginary cute shy-quiet little sister that I now know a bit about if I were to have one of your type as a daughter
+Meaui Ting: For yah well trusting in me and my ability to be able to help when time comes.
+Kembar: for making me have a taste of what having a twin daughter would be like
+Evina: the loudest girl I have encounter, preparing me that my daughter can be as non-girly as I might have hoped for
+Wawa: For letting me know how a lil cute sis would touch my heart feels like
+EBI: for preparing me that my own daughter could be as "tough" as she is

14. For all my extended family members grandparents,uncle,ciu2,kuku,ii,chang2,acek, help shape me in big or small way in my life

15. For having a lot more connection/social network that I originally thought I had due to all the school changing, and college transferring

16. For all the teachers in my schools that give their best to me

17. for all the diciplinary act that I had to face my entire life for making me who I am today

18. For my non-double standard and equality for all thinking that manage me to think more than one way of looking towards something

19. for wicca, and the witches that played a huge role on my spell-casting skill

20. For Tao, that lead me to believe that light need darkness as much as darkness need light, the two co-exist and it's a battle of eternity.

21. For all the manga I have read that lead to a lot of understanding of japanese culture

22. For all the song that have filled me with foor for my soul, especially a few from lately:
Just haven't met u yet, somebody to love, shewolf, tik tok, and Bad Romance

23. For the rain that always wash away my sin and gives me new hopes whenever I'm on a very dark deep hollowand how it managed to save and revive me every single time

24. For having to rewrite these few last updated thing I'm thankfdul for since It got erased;awesome!!!!


25. Swimming wear and equipment to keep my comfortable under water.

26. My new and old handycam,dual camera for recording lots of briliiant even over these few last year.

27. For keeping myself through doing this list even though it got erased a few times already

28. For having shaving equipment fore my body that is hairy everywhere and so in deep need of laser removal...evewrywhere

29. For being able to cook....

30. For restaurant to order take out from when I'm not in the mood to cook which was all the time these past few years.

31. For 24hours supermarket to let me do my midnite shopping of groceries...

32. For frozen food to cover my needs when take away is just not an option,aka when I'm lazy to go out which is most of the time

33. For 24hours fitness to let me do workout on a vampire hours....

34. For the existence of chicken and squid/calamari as food

35. For Popeye and A&W for my favorit fast food chicken

36. For my classmates/ schoolmates for giving me a touch of different society in life

37. For changing school so many times for which I wouldn'( have me so many people in my life especially due to my lack of social interaction

38. For my blogs,to let me share my thought for those who still wishes to hear them.

39. For my bb backup batere in for which I could not continue my blogging or other function from my BB.

40. For 24 hour fast food/ restaurant when I'm having after the dark craving.... Or just going with friends

41. For finally reaching 40 bec 4 is my lucky/favo number and I almost reach halfway of this list

42. For getting to watch Wicked in Orpheum theatre in San Francisco, one less thing on my things to do before leaving this hell hole for life.

43. For having a Wii, nintendo DS, PSP 3000 and other gaming console that entertain me in my spare time and some more...

44. For changing the word "for" with the number "4" for the rest of this list and certainly many other word "cut" that exist nowadays.

45. 4 the chances that I might get another vacation in Asia this new year 2009-2010

46. 4 for realizing that it was a lot harder than I thought and thank goddess that I have all weekend, that only left me with less than 18 hours to finish the remaining 54 things....huh....

47. 4 the books that I get to read, novels....especially the twilight series.

48. 4

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Something I can't get out from my head

( I think I was infected with Bakuman's virus, but anyhow this is a conversation that i just can't get out of my head)

A; Why would someone trying to get it?
B: bec they know how powerful it is
A: if we have a powerful items shouldn't we have used it to our advantage?
B: No, we can't use it's power, it reeks of evil.
A: then why we didn't destroy it before?
B: Bec we can't... It's a necessary evil
A: Necessary evil?
B: Haven't somebody told you that evil and good are like twins, just as light can't shine without the darkness, there can't be any good without evil.
A: so the necessary part would be...
B: ... that something that we needed to keep in the balance on everything
A: but that would mena even if we win this war evil would still exist?
B: Evil would still and always will exist, it has to, but after we won this would only necessary evil would happen to the world
A: But....
B: There's no but believe it or not we who serve the good, the light need that necessary evil, the world need that necessary evil. Without necessarily evil, police can't kill bad people in order to save the good ones, the head of religious belief can't preach about God and many more will die from disbelief, even though we know that they use their powers for their own purposes rather than Goddess's, but it's better to have more mis-belief people rather than more of disbelieving people. These are all necessary evil without it, the protector can't protect, and the evil dweller can't turn good. The World need necessary evil. And Right now we need to find that thing before someone decided to use it power for the UN-Necessary evil and it will turn evil and does chos to the world.
A: I understand....




Just a thought crossing over, enjoy
OXOX
Tao Priestess

Thursday, November 5, 2009

the song that was made for me

The lyrics of this song just reflect to,from and for me

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!



I'll wait for you....forever...
OXOX
Tao Priestess