My love poem

Got the inspiration..from listening love romantic song from my mandarin mixed cd....on my way to school to do my 1st final....of course the timing of my creativity always sucks....most of the time....

And I haven't written any love poem since the 3rd grade,so I dunno how this one is gonna be

Pardon my mandarin pinyin,I haven't been a very fluent on kanji writing or pinyin spelling....so HELP ME fix them if u got the time...thanks


Wo de ai....
(My Love....)
(Cintaku....)

Wo yau ni de ai...sui ran wo hai mei dao ni
(I want your love...even though I haven't met you,yet)
(Ku ingin cintamu...walau aku belom bertemu dengan mu)


Ren shuo bu de bu ai....tan shi wo zhi dao wo ai ni le
(Some say to know is to love....but I know - already love you)
(Kata org tak kenal tak sayang....tapi kutahu aku telah sayang kamu)


Mei tian wo deng ni lai....wei shen me ni hai bu lai
(Everyday I wait for you to come....why you haven't yet arrive)
(Tiap hari aku hanya menunggu kedatanganmu..mengapa engkau tidak kian tiba pula)
.

Mei tian wan shang wo kan yue...wo de xiang zhi hai you ni
(Every night I view the moon...only my mind goes running to you)
(Tiap malam kutatap rembulan....hanya dalam pikiranku cuma ada engkau)

Yue liang hen hao mei...tan shi mei yi shi ru kou ni bu zai wo sheng bian
(I saw the moonlight oh so very pretty....,but it doesn't mean a thing without you by my side)
(Kuratap rembulan begitu indah cahayanya....,tetapi tiada berarti tanpa dirimu di sampingku)

wo huai yi ni bu ke neng lai...ke shi yong yuan wo hai yao deng ni dao lai...
(I have doubts about you ever come to my life....however I'll still wait until the ends of time...)
(Terlintas dalam pikiranku bahwa kau takkan pernah datang....hanya aku masih rela tuk menunggu selamanya...)

OKOKOK I know my mandarin pinyin definitely sucks....HELP ME fix them please
And to be sure of what I'm saying/ wanna say I'll translate to indo and english so that u guys can help me

P.S. To all my friends thank you for the support on this again, again, and again.... I dunno if I'm still here alive if it wasn't for you all telling me to be patient, wait... and that she's coming as fast as she can....

What I'm thankful for

So... since I started to check on twitter and subscribe to tweets of good life or how-to-lead-a-happy-life or something like that... I read it's tweet to day that told me/says that to have a happy life or to prove that you got a happy life or something, you gotta mention 100 things you're grateful for, and since I'm an ungrateful son of a bitch that's trying to lead a new positive attitude towards life for my longevity and bla...bla...bla... I figured couldn't hurt to try and if possible to keep a bright ,smile, and shiny, attitude especially since lately I just keep pissing of people no matter what I said..., so a nice change of view and "scenery for my life would not be such a bad idea....

So, I'm gonna do 100 and each must be a completely different from the others since I can't just say thankful for Kriten Stewart, Peter Facinelli, Selena gomez, and that coounts as 3, should only coun;t as one for a category... so this is gonna be long and most probably boring, but I do it for the sake of changing myself into a grateful son of a bitch for once in my life, so definitely didn't have to read or anything because I did all of this for me, myself, and I.

1. I'm thankful for all the meals I have eaten today, they were all sugoi-desu,my stomach feels like exploding much.

2. For the joy of fatherhood(well unclehood,actually) from my baby(not my actual baby) Dexton Jax Djunaidy and My roomies/his parents,it was unbelievable and unforgettable,doubtful that I will forget my first time babysitting as a an actual adult, definitely will brace me for fatherhood someday in the future

3. Having a blog,twitter,youtube, and definitely facebook to make me able to get my mind out to the "world" and especially keeping in touch with those people I caee about.

4. Having a blackberry/ipod/laptop and other electronics that allows me to connect to internet, it's no longer a necessity, but a need in my life

5. Thankful for having great roomies, and my baby plus etc to share this thankful day with

6. Thankful for having a car, a HONDA and a CRV especially that managed to drive me to SFSU that was 45minutes away from where I live and yet doesn't give a hole on my spending for gasoline,if I were in sing would have definitely take public transport, so I'm very glad to have an accessible transportation while I was here in USA

7. Thankfui for $y family who pushed....no forced me to come to USA and made me reliaze that my thoughts are amazingly accurate about Hating this place in the first place.

8. Thanful for this part of painful dreadful journey in my life, to make m$e realize what I had before at home were so much better and nothing can compares to then.

9. Thxful 4 all the exp I got that made me, wiser,bitter,grunt,realist, and individualist who I have never relate myself as.

10. Definitely for the fact that only 8months left toward my commitment in USA and after that would be the freedom, and joy to know I would never come back for any reason at all (well most reasons lah,since The Fray said," Never said Never")

11. For the family that I hava,since there have all been there for me:

+my dad-forcing his "best" decisions for me;

+my-mom-defending me when times comes where I can't defend myself;

+my bro-denoya for reminding me spontanity and passion is something good to have in my life; +mybro-A2 to let me know when I have cross the humanilty line that for me seems so blurred/invisible most of my life

12. For my God family:

+my god-mom for someone who shows caring in a way that touched my heart and show me the term caring much deeper than anyone;

+my God-dad for being able to be someone that I can speak freely to, without judgement, and listens;

+my god-sis, Cessa for making me feeled like I'm not alone in being the oldest of all,sincew she's the only female granddaughter;

+my godsis-sien for able to critic me of evewry single action that was unclear even to myself sometimes;

+my godsis ting-for reminding me that what almost-having- a lil-sister would truly-most-likely-be-like;

+my god bro ivan; for reminding me that innocense of a boy isn't something that will last in time and yet also needed to see thing clearly in thw world

13. For my cousins each one especially unique and amazing and change my life/ way I look/face life all 15 of them excluding my god-siblings:
+Juwina: for arguing and debating on individualist vs communist,huge vs small; USA vs Singapore, which leads to a lot of verbal arguin and lots of common misunderstanding that made me realize where I am "standing" at.

+King2: for letting me know how a creepy guy feels like, and very grateful for it that I no longer manage to see on how creepy someone would be, but giving me the courage to try understand psycho people mind works a bit differently and if you're able to understand them might be there's hope for me to make them understand how to open themselves to other pattern of thoughts.

+Wiz: for listening sometimes and understanding as well when I share my thought with you bout well almost everything

+Ning2: for being the imaginary cute shy-quiet little sister that I now know a bit about if I were to have one of your type as a daughter

+Meaui Ting: For yah well trusting in me and my ability to be able to help when time comes.

+Kembar: for making me have a taste of what having a twin daughter would be like

+Evina: the loudest girl I have encounter, preparing me that my daughter can be as non-girly as I might have hoped for

+Wawa: For letting me know how a lil cute sis would touch my heart feels like

+EBI: for preparing me that my own daughter could be as "tough" as she is

14. For all my extended family members grandparents,uncle,ciu2,kuku,ii,chang2,acek, help shape me in big or small way in my life

15. For having a lot more connection/social network that I originally thought I had due to all the school changing, and college transferring

16. For all the teachers in my schools that give their best to me

17. for all the diciplinary act that I had to face my entire life for making me who I am today

18. For my non-double standard and equality for all thinking that manage me to think more than one way of looking towards something

19. for wicca, and the witches that played a huge role on my spell-casting skill

20. For Tao, that lead me to believe that light need darkness as much as darkness need light, the two co-exist and it's a battle of eternity.

21. For all the manga I have read that lead to a lot of understanding of japanese culture

22. For all the song that have filled me with foor for my soul, especially a few from lately:
Just haven't met u yet, somebody to love, shewolf, tik tok, and Bad Romance

23. For the rain that always wash away my sin and gives me new hopes whenever I'm on a very dark deep hollowand how it managed to save and revive me every single time

24. For having to rewrite these few last updated thing I'm thankfdul for since It got erased;awesome!!!!

25. Swimming wear and equipment to keep my comfortable under water.

26. My new and old handycam,dual camera for recording lots of briliiant even over these few last year.

27. For keeping myself through doing this list even though it got erased a few times already

28. For having shaving equipment fore my body that is hairy everywhere and so in deep need of laser removal...evewrywhere

29. For being able to cook....

30. For restaurant to order take out from when I'm not in the mood to cook which was all the time these past few years.

31. For 24hours supermarket to let me do my midnite shopping of groceries...

32. For frozen food to cover my needs when take away is just not an option,aka when I'm lazy to go out which is most of the time

33. For 24hours fitness to let me do workout on a vampire hours....

34. For the existence of chicken and squid/calamari as food

35. For Popeye and A&W for my favorit fast food chicken

36. For my classmates/ schoolmates for giving me a touch of different society in life

37. For changing school so many times for which I wouldn'( have me so many people in my life especially due to my lack of social interaction

38. For my blogs,to let me share my thought for those who still wishes to hear them.

39. For my bb backup batere in for which I could not continue my blogging or other function from my BB.

40. For 24 hour fast food/ restaurant when I'm having after the dark craving.... Or just going with friends

41. For finally reaching 40 bec 4 is my lucky/favo number and I almost reach halfway of this list

42. For getting to watch Wicked in Orpheum theatre in San Francisco, one less thing on my things to do before leaving this hell hole for life.

43. For having a Wii, nintendo DS, PSP 3000 and other gaming console that entertain me in my spare time and some more...

44. For changing the word "for" with the number "4" for the rest of this list and certainly many other word "cut" that exist nowadays.

45. 4 the chances that I might get another vacation in Asia this new year 2009-2010

46. 4 for realizing that it was a lot harder than I thought and thank goddess that I have all weekend, that only left me with less than 18 hours to finish the remaining 54 things....huh....

47. 4 the books that I get to read, novels....especially the twilight series.

48. 4

Something I can't get out from my head

( I think I was infected with Bakuman's virus, but anyhow this is a conversation that i just can't get out of my head)

A; Why would someone trying to get it?

B: bec they know how powerful it is

A: if we have a powerful items shouldn't we have used it to our advantage?

B: No, we can't use it's power, it reeks of evil.

A: then why we didn't destroy it before?

B: Bec we can't... It's a necessary evil

A: Necessary evil?

B: Haven't somebody told you that evil and good are like twins, just as light can't shine without the darkness, there can't be any good without evil.

A: so the necessary part would be...

B: ... that something that we needed to keep in the balance on everything

A: but that would mena even if we win this war evil would still exist?

B: Evil would still and always will exist, it has to, but after we won this would only necessary evil would happen to the world

A: But....

B: There's no but believe it or not we who serve the good, the light need that necessary evil, the world need that necessary evil. Without necessarily evil, police can't kill bad people in order to save the good ones, the head of religious belief can't preach about God and many more will die from disbelief, even though we know that they use their powers for their own purposes rather than Goddess's, but it's better to have more mis-belief people rather than more of disbelieving people. These are all necessary evil without it, the protector can't protect, and the evil dweller can't turn good. The World need necessary evil. And Right now we need to find that thing before someone decided to use it power for the UN-Necessary evil and it will turn evil and does chos to the world.

A: I understand....

Just a thought crossing over, enjoy

OXOX

Tao Priestess

the song that was made for me

The lyrics of this song just reflect to,from and for me

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!



I'll wait for you....forever...
OXOX
Tao Priestess


 

Lonely weekend is over...

Still having a headache for a few hours now... udah take panadol pun msh ga mempan.. damn I might even go to bad early bec of this...

Anyway... feeling like writing bec today at Desperate Housewives it's all about judging, judgement, and getting judged of course...

as Mary alice young said... It's very easy to judge people by they have done, but when we're the one being judged we get defensive, and even blame other for our mistake/fault. and Certainly how do we judge ourself and how do we live with that judgement even after ignoring other's judgement.

So, question to self, "how do I manage to somehow getting judges by my family as a ungrateful selfish-spoiled brat; cruel and all over by my friends; while I can't even manage to finish everything I'm suppose to do and times seems to fly by so fast, and yet I didn't even move an inch in my life?"

I don't know... I really wish I know and can manage to do everything a child, friend, student, independent human being.... I really wish that I can be a better at all of this... I wish to change, and I know I can and I will be though I must ay it will took time...and place... oh I just wish that I can really fast forward this next 9months so that this "life" i had here can be over now instead of torturing me for the next 9 months. I can finally leave this part of my life behind and start a complete new one right now.... but I cna't fast forward time, due to not having a Universal remote of my life..... on my hand. so gotta suck it up stay strong...especially through this verge of my "breakdown"/"heart attack" / "stroke" and whatever else I called it.... 9 months left just stay strong, and believe in myself. and all of the support of my friends would be all I needed. thank for all of them, guys....

Now that the depressing part is over... Oh, My goddess Desperate Housewives is very funny, and Brothers&Sisters after is Hilarious with the dropping jaw guest star,Gilles Marini . Which lliterally drop the jaw of most of the cast, which was hilarious.... cna't stop laughing, a perfect ending , then ending I needed after being left home alone of 3 days and nite by my roommates,(they did ask and black mailed me to come with them, but I have to said no bec I got class) and makes me feel so lonely and homesick I even sleep in the sofa just bec I don't wanna sleep in my bed in my room when I know that the next room is empty and no one's going to knock on my door, that and the 42" 1080p TV flat screen is better than the 32" 720p LCD monitor in my room. So, I move everything downstair until they finally came back last nite...

Bro&Sis is super hilarious Have I mention there's dancingS , and the very drool-worthy, jaw-dropping of Gilles Marini coming out of the pool in a speedo? or normal swimming trunk, I didn't even know what was that, bec the camera isn't focused on that ONLY, but the close up of the juciest of entire human body, I guess....Half kidding, I was laughing myself off especially watching all the reaction of the entire family spying on him in a slow motion dripping wet out of the pool scene(too bad I gotta keep my mouth shut very quickly remembering my baby is sleeping next room)

Anyway hopefully u guys enjoy this weekend of yours, and don't miss the latest Desperate Housewife and Brothers&Sisters this week, go to www.abc.com and watch those online, and use hotspotshield, so that all of u who are out of the USA internet user can still watch it for free on ABC.com website.

As Kitty text the entire house,

"The House is on Fire & party on the swimming pool"


Enjoy...,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

GG's quote

This one is deeply close to my heart, I should think that you all know why....

Gossip Girl:

"If you ask me, we go to the movies because we want to see fairytales."

"A sleeping queen woken by her true love's kiss."

"A princess who puts aside her jewels to make her way in the world."

"Lovers torn apart being brought together."

"But Life isn't a Fairytale & Happy Endings are few and far between"

"In life, The Young Queen becomes a tyrant & takes her subjects to wars."

"So, that's why we need movies.... to remind us that despite it all, LOVE can still spring in the most unlikely of all places."

"And that Sometimes Even Fairytale Can Come True."

XOXO

GossipGirl

The song that I just can't get out of my head.....

Ingrid Michaelson - Maybe

I don't wanna be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

Chorus:
'Cus maybe in the future You're gonna come back
Gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
Gonna come back
Oh the only way to really know
Is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back
Gonna come back
Gonna come back to me

I don't wanna be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know, I got, to let them go

Repeat Chorus:

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets, pulled over my head
And I'm gonna wash away
(I'm gonna wash away)
Oh I'm gonna wash away
Everthing 'til you come home to me

Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back in the future
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Repeat Chorus:

mmmm you're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

The fall tv shows are back...

Gossip girl is back tonite. All I can say it's very exciting to see Joanna Garcia guest-starring as a Red-head, fabulous or very hot, my heart stop beating for a sec when I saw her.... Blair&Chuck's drama have come to an end thankfully, so grateful to finally see their version of happy ending. Can't wait for Michelle Trachtenberg's guest appearance next week...

Got Bones to watch this Thursday... Yey.... and Fringe, I guess uh... and the mentalist...

Next week all shows are back, Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, Brother and Sisters, how I met your mother, the big bang theory, House, Castle, New adventure of old christine, gary unmarried, modern family, cougar town, eastwick, Ghost whisperer and Dollhouse... wow... this is a lot.... and I even quit heroes already....
p
And as these to the shows I'm watching, over the summer (Greek, Glee, 90210, Melrose Place,etc) oh...just thankful secret life of american teenager are on a break.

Gonna be a very busy week next week....
ow.... well, just thought I let you guys know what I think is good and I'm watching...if you have the same taste as me in TV shows of course

M$TM

VMA's 09

VMA's pre-show is kinda cool, get to see ashley green interviewing LEighton Meester.

MAdonna;s opening speech for a tribute to MJ is awesome especialy, "yes....yes, Michael Jackson was a human being, but damn it he was a king. Long live the king."

MJ's tribude video, along with dancers on stage follow up by Janet Jackson...Cool

Next Katy Perry opens to presents Rusell Brand for the Host again this year...

And the host is still as hilarious as ever....

1st presentors are my favo's song belly-dancing singer, Shakira.... and Taylor L. a.k.a. "Jacob" (she wolf and werewolf.....wakakakak)
present best female video....
And Taylor Swift won the 1st Moonman(VMA's award) for You belong to Me

That's so uncool, Kanye....cutting Taylor's speech and what seems like about to make her cry....

Jack Black and Leighton Meester present best rock video.... to.... Greenday fir 21guns

Taylor performing on real New york's subway... Awesome(my bros and cousin are actually going to be at NY tomorrow, to bad...if only they get there 1 day earlier might be ablte to join in on the craziness of the VMA's)

GreenDAy and Cobrastarship presents LAdy Gaga's performance..... the one that was so freaking awesome dramatic a bit of the broadway musical, but nonetheless amazing.....

Nelly Furtado and some girl from the the hills presents best pop video to Britney for Womenizer who's can't accept but are on tour. I was rooting for this video and Cobrasraship's Good Girl Gone BAd

MEgan fox and Adam Brody presents Greenday's performance

NEst, The Triangle of Love....sort of... Kristen(looks so cure with her dress and bob haircut...),Taylor and Rob walks down the stage, I'm gonna try to quote everything they said:

Kristen: " Twilight fans whether you're team JAcob or team Edward, we wanna thank you for your undying support and over the past year."
Rob: "For tonight we'll be bringing you, and only you the first work we have done in the past few months."
Taylor: "Just for the MTv video Music Awards this is the exdended trailer of NEw moon."

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANjing........................The New freaking trailer is Freaking super cool........... AGH...........And as I thought Kristen's act would get her an oscar or somewhat... She freaking deserve it, I'm sure of it..... watch it HERE(use hotspotshield from hotspotshield.com if the link says the video is not available in your country,ok.....Watch it)

Beyonce perform another one of my favo song right now, Sweet Dream.....continue on to single ladies, very cool

Best male video...nomination....(Take the BOOOOOOOO, Kanye, u so.........deserve it........) T.I. Won

Muse performs...

Jennifer Lopez persents best hip hop video to.. Eminem for we made u, and although I certainly despise him and despise rap music, but certainly I love this song for some reason.... I really wonder who sings the female part....

Eminem and Tracy Morgan presents... best new artist to Lady Gaga, od course... who else...

Serena presents Pick who's performing sober up sky in the air in what looks like a circus leotard outfit...., but outstanding performance.

Just as she wishes for it, Beyonce won the Video of the year for Single Ladies.....
She gave Taylor her "lost" moment of speech back, it's amazing.....

Jay-z performs...with Alicia Keys.....for the closing performance and for the real closing.... they are showing Michael Jackson's trailer for the concert This Is It! Oct 18th comeing to the cinemas

to check out what happen more with Kanye's drama seeking moment you can go here

And gain CHECK OUT New Moon's Extended Trailer, here (again use hotspotshield if it says the video is not available in your country)
XOXO
Tao Priestess

A day full of reminiscencing

It takes 2 bros,700km drive,to makes me realizes what had happened for the last 5 years...

+my brothers talking to my roommate made me realizes how they have never even met before this.
+driving to mystery spot with my bros remind me of when I was driving to santa cruz with my "friend"s that now no longer have time for me in their lives.
+shopping at gilroy reminds me of the same thing, and how I have never been there for almost 2 years
+the very long drive to L.A. makes me remember I have been down this road too many times to even remember
+my coz,Lady's apartment reminds me of another friends apartment in Berkeley
+Lady's sis getting on over-drive mode, made me realizes that the argument about U.S.A. Vs Singapore between me and Lady have gone on very very long, too long....(Though I was willing to settle in agree to disagree, since last year once I realizes that we hate the same exact thing just from the opposite's country and I'm certainly very willing to get this argument over with and settle for the "peace", but she just don't see it that way or my way. I think....)
+arriving at the first house I lived in here made me realizes how things have changed yet, they just stayed the same....and on how... I was right here in my futon bed 5 years ago... Thinking how to even begin understanding this freaking No-TV on weekdays rule, and 5 years later.... Living happily with my roommates' and our baby in my favorite city in the U.S.A., sort of... And in another 11 months, I won't even remember anything about this futon bed... Or that american kids attitute that I just wanna beat the crap out of my devils-cousins 5 years ago.... And will be living peacefully within somewhere I choose to be and deciding what to doi and what's my plan up ahead in months, years, and decades.... And I know that my feeling of hate,rage,etc crap will flow away as I would only remeber this place as somewhere I have just been to, nowhere important where something crucial of my life happens, no more thoughts about possible heart attack,stroke or mental break-down will even cross my mind again... And I can feel them... Even though I'm won't actually feel them permanently until the next 11 months , but I'm certainly enjoying this trance I'm in right now... I don't wanna fight, don't wanna argue, don't wanna have to defend myself,my views and my thoughs over and over and over again.... I just wanna make peace with this place so that I can say Goodbye and actually missed it someday, though certainly not enough missing that made me wanna come back here,hopefully...

Just a small wonderfull peace just like right now...where I'm about to be dozed to the other world (dream world) in seconds, certainly will be great to feel this permanetly... Just another 11 months to enjoy, not to bare, but to really enbjoy, work hard abnd especially just going to be happy...
XOXO
Tao Priestess

TEEN CHOICE'09

Finally something to Blog about

It was like all my fantasy come true....

there's Leighton Meester, cast of Twilight, High School Musical and Secret Life of American Teenager, Selena Gomez, almost all my favorite star.. uh.. almost forget the very special Miss Britney Spears...except for Jonas brother hosting it....

First of all Best actor&actress in a Drama Series... any guess?

yup the "perfect" couple Leighton Meester and Chase Crawford wins it, so does gossip girl for the best drama series.... Per....fect...

Cast of Icarly presents

Ellen Degeneres wins the first ever Twit award..., don't get it....? yeah, it's a twitter thing...

Corbin Blue & Ashley Tisdale present:

Choice movie actor for comedy to Zac Efron....for 17 again...of course. He also accepting choice movie actor for music or dance (for HSM3), and choice movie rock star moment (for 17 Again)

Sean Kingston perform his new song...

Next presentors: Emma Roberts & Hayden Panettiere

Emma: Before we give out this awards... I want you to know that Hayden wins 2 teen choice tonite: choice actress in tv action/adventure and choice celebrity activist. she's a hero in a real life too.

Hayden: thank you, Emma

Choice Fresh Face: Taylor Lautner & Ashley Greene

Summer Choice

+Movie:

- Action/Adventure : Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

- Comedy : Up

- Romance : The Proposal

- Movie Star : Shia LeBeouf

+Television:

-Female Breakout: Demi Lovato

-Male Breakout: Frankie Jonas( 4th Jonas... I think)

Ed Westwick won Choice TV villain 2nd year in a row for GossipGirl presents with Kristen Bell Choice TV action/adventure nominee and the voice of GossipGirl, the choice summer movie drama: My sister's Keeper.

Choice summer male TV star, "Ricky" and "Amy" from Secret Life... presests a bunch of choice award for Miley Cyrus... ridiculous....hate that arrogant Bitch, but her performance was quite nive... even though I have mixed feeling about the song due to the lyrics, "Britney's song" and "party of the usa" I'm sure Young Majesty Frost should like this song....

Next, Choice Female Summer Tv Stars goes to Selena Gomez, Princess Protection Program won choice summer tv show, and she also got choice for female fashion icon on red carpet. WOHO

*that reminds me I haven't watch Princess Protection Program.....

Dane Cook presents Choice Hottie to: Megan Fox (Choice Summer Movie Star Female) & Robert Pattinson (Choice Movie actor Drama)

I like Megan's closing : "I'm gonna shut up now, so you all can look at Robert Pattinson."

Robert's got to many awards this year that he says and I quote, "...Stephanie Meyers... and the usuals." wow, that's a way to show that someone's tired of making pretty much the same speech over over and over again...

Cast of upcoming movie Band Slam, Vanessa hudgens, Alyson Michalka, and a guy presents Black Eyes Peas

Choice Movie Actor: action/adventure goes to Hugh Jackman for Wolverine(Choice Movie Action/Adventure)

Miley, d bitch I hate... presents a very special award for Britney, THE ULTIMATE CHOICE AWARD

People are chanting Britney...Britney....Britney....

*the presentation for Britney was Awesome...

Jennifer Morrison and Honor Society give out a bunch of update on the awards "missed"

Choice:

+Music:

-R&B artist: Beyonce

-Rock Ed : Paramore

-Male artist : Jason Mraz

-Female artist : Taylor Swift (something u're proud, of course,Frost)

- Breakout artist : David Achilueta(or however u speel his name)

New category Choice Fabulous: Miss J

Special presentation for Twilight

Choice Movie Drama

Choice Music Sountrack

Choice Movie Liplock: Rob & Kristen Stewart (DA!!!!!!)

Choice Movie Actor Drama: Rob Pattison

Choice Movie Actress Drama: Kristen Stewart

Choice Movie Fresh Face Male: Taylor Lautner

Choice Movie fresh Face Female : Ashley Greene

Choice Male Hottie : Rob P

Choice Movie Villain : Cam Gigandet

Choice Movie Rumble : Rob P vs Cam G

Choice Movie Romance

and... Twilight cast on stage....(Kristen drag Taylor to speak on their behalf...also promoting New Moon, Rob took over a bit) (Kristen looks different in not in a bad way... her hair was dark and she got silver piercings, just can't stop taking my eyes of her....)

Originally it was mentioned that Twilight got 12 nominations and GossipGirl got 9 nomination...

But as you can see the total for twilight was 11 nominations not because they lose any but because Ashley Greene was nominated along with her co-star Nikki Reed for the same category Fresh Face Female...

Pretty much done... I skipped the ending of Jonas Brothers' stuff.

I have fun watching it... get to see most of my favo celeb, so happy....

OXOX

Tao Priestess

What a Day.....

1st I found out that I got a shift and a "wrong" bend at my C2 C3 vertebrate (neck bone) on my C5.
I t bends the wrong way suppose to be backwards it bends forwards or the other way around I don't remember the doctor's report.

2nd last year I got a pain in my right hip area every time I stretch. I thought my hip was out of place or something, like my bro's dislocated shoulder, but apparently I got a crack on my vertebrate near my hip bone, and the crack was on the right, so... that's the cause of my pain last year. and the vertebrate there shifted a bit as well.

3rd The doctor said there's no need for surgery bec the pain come and goes and I know what sort of thing would trigger my back pain, so just avoid them and GOTTA LOSE WEIGHT and EXERCISE in order to prevent my vertebrate to shift some more than it already is. In about 3-5 years I might need to do surgery to fix the shifted vertabrates bec the pain would be all the time sort of thing. Also, avoid lifting heavy things and the best exercise for me is to swim, awesome... sort of... (can't no longer pick up my baby since he would be counted as heavy things, but I know I wouldn't be able to resist picking up the little cutie pie)

4th I drive to Jakarta timur, well certainly not on my own, I would have been lost, and get to spend time wit one of my friends and get to watch Revaline S Temat in Perempuan Berkalung Sorban, which is an awesome movie, my favorite political debate subject, how women was portrayed and treated as a 2nd class citizen, etc.

5th I got into a car accident right after I picked up my godmother and my god sis. We're going to the dentist in Gading and on the way ... BAM from the left side a orange-white taxi hit my left front wheel area and I went from let's say facing north (0*) to north east (45*) making me head straight for a commercial pole located in the corner front area of a Rumah Duka Atma Jaya. Luckily not the lamp pole in behind that TV offer commercial poles. My God mom is alright, but still in "shock" mode up until now, my god sis got away with a scratch. I'm fine. The car got a lot more damage from the pole than from the taxi,but the taxi did break down. It was speeding, of course it got most of the damage. Everything settled although not my fault really, but you know what I'm in indo can't really reason when the police won't even blame the perpetrator. Oklho, everything is settled and done. I'm in no shock state or did I got any injury from the accident. I'm good, thank for those who worried for me.

Ok, it' been a day certainly let's see if I can fall asleep easily after day like these.
OXOX
Tao Priestess

I never meant to start a war .... why do love always feels like a battle field?

Mtv Movie Awards Best Scenes

Best presenters: Sandra Bullock & Ryan Reynolds, for Bess Kiss

The funniest skid I have ever watch in MTV Movie Awards EVER.

From The Proposal, here are Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds

Ryan: We are here tonight to present the award for best kiss.
Sandra: Yes...
R: That's very very very special year for this category
S:Yes...
R:because there 2 mano-o-mano kisses nominated for the 1st time
S:Yes, oh... yes. So, If you're a actor in this business and would like to increase your chances to get nominated. A word of advice, Ryan start kissing some dude.
...(audience laugh)...
R: I kissed you, did that count?
...(audience gasp)...
S: What...?What does that mean?
R: I don't know
S: What does that mean!
R: You just have a very probing tongue.
S: What DOES that mean!
R: And the nominees are...


Best Acceptance: Kristen Stewart & Rob Pattinson

Sandra: And the winner for best kiss is
Both:"Oh,my god. Oh, my God Oh, My God, OH my God, OH MY GOD. Rob Pattison and Kristen Stewart."
Both actor and actress came up to the stage and
Rob: I need to..., uh...
(get his gum out of his mouth)
Rob: I need to remove my gum
(rub his eyes and get his hair up like Edward)
Kristen move her hair around and try to get in character.
Both in position and character as Edward and Bella, and their hands against each other jut like in the movie, and when their lips about to move towards each other and Kristen goes down towards the mike and said, "Thank you so much." Leaving Rob's mouth open and frozen in mid air from shock.

The most amazingly-unbelievable-I-can't-believe-she's-just-did-that moment.

You guys should really watch it if at all possible, here's the link.
http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/395491/2009-mtv-movie-awards-kristen-stewart-robert-pattinson-win-best-kiss.jhtml#id=1611658
And if the website said something like this video isn't available in your country like in hulu.com or youtube.com, try downloading something called hot spot shield from the Internet and install it to your computer, and run it, and you should be able to watch any kind of video EVEN the video is not permitted to watch outside of SELFISH country as U.S.A.




Twilight cast clean sweep the MTV Movie Awards:

-Best Fight - Rob Pattinson as Edward Vs Cam Gigandet as James
-Best Breakthrough Male - Rob Pattinson as Edward; (Taylor Lautner also got nominated for Jacob)
-Best Kiss - Rob Pattinson as Edward & Kristen Stewart as Bella (DA!)
-Best Female Performance - Kristen Stewart (Double DA!)
-Best Movie - Won

Beside Twilight HSM3 seems to be doing all the sweep cleaning also:
Best Breakthrough Female - Ashley Tisdale as Sharpay (Vannessa Hudgens also got nominated for Gabriella)
Best Kiss - Troy & Gabriella nominated
Best Male Performance - Zac Efron as Troy
Best Movie - Nominated

The Best song in a movie award Paramore - Decode got nominated , but the winner is the stupid self-absorbent bitch, Miley Cyrus, Ugh I wanna puke, and High School Musical 3:Senior Year didn't even got nominated , Bleh.

So far 2009 is the best one yet, hopefully New Moon, 20-11-2009 can replace Twilight next year to win all of these awards,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

My swing mood

My mood on this week would be clear once you listen to both of these songs:

The Veronicas - Untouched

and

Christinia DeBarge - Goodbye

These song just clearly shows how my mood-swing goes on around this week

NightmareS

Huh, these past 2 nights, I have been having a weird dream, well not weird, just that it's been a while since I had bad dreams, especially 2 nights in a row. 

Ok,lets begin the first one, as usual I can't remember very well how it started off, but I believe I was partying with my place somethings happen that I don't remember and then I heard my parent shouting calling me and I thought did my party/sleepover/hanging out with my friends bother them like too loud or something like that and they were about to scold me. And then my brothers also came out of their rooms(note that in this dream I didn't recognize a single place, it's somewhere I have never seen before, which leads me to thinking about if the dream possibly take place at my possible new home in Indo, on the Bukit Golf, anyway just a thought, not that important). Ok so we all went down to the garage and already I can hear my mom literally yelling and I was scared it must be because of something that I do(huh, this dream might just makes sense to me, on this second. I'll explain later). Ok, so apparently there's a bathroom leak and the garage was flooded and my mom and dad was cleaning them up, and I panicky think did my "party" did this over use of the bathroom by my guest while I'm observing the flooded area and my mom went to get a mop and was going to try to push out all the water that was blocked in the higher are water pathway by pushing the mop from one hole so that the water would go out from the other hole, but just went she passed through the other hole /I saw a glimpse of something and then from the 1st hole where my mom was headed appear this great giant tail and I recognize that tail, and I was certain what was inside the hollow water way, a giant grey-brown leopard crocodile, and I was running toward the area warning my mom, "mami, ada buaya!" and my mom backed of and retreat to a safe area and I'm in directly on top of the floor where this crocodile is, and I started thinking to run back and just when my foot reach near the other hole, the crocodile mouth with all of it's teeth show up and bite my foot, and that's when I woke up in fear.

 

(Ok, so these last few days I might have been taking precautions on how to hide my Tattoo from my parents when I'm back in Asia, I got all boxer underwear ready, but when I didn't notice sometimes it rides up and my tattoo shows a bit, I just hope that I'm aware that I have a tattoo now and since I didn't want my parent to know, I'm certainly gonna ave to be careful. It's just that these last few months I had even been aware of my Tats that much anymore so I got careless. Let's all just hope for the best that they would never know, and even if they do they won't know about procedure called tattoo removal surgery or I'm certain that they will make me do it. so right now while writing the first dream I might have figured out that my fear or guilt might have come from getting this tattoo behind their back, but again I don't think it was that important)

Ok, next 2nd dream last nite. Again wasn't very clear on how it started, it's a bit blur I know that I was wanting a snake for some reason, and I got it for some reason and have it in my room and my 1st bro, A2 was there and so things that I don't remember and then I was in my bed and suddenly just quickly like in the movie or something the snake was like "standing" in from of my bed and with very quick movement and I was scared and definitely already that it'll bite me and as with the speed of lightning it did, it bite me in my right side of the neck and I can feel the pain and my blood was like sucked and I managed to get a hold of the snake and put it out, and my bro was laughing in tht e background, "Hahaha, it's just a little blood/ or it's just a snake bite." and my thoughts some running through my knowledge mind and I remember that snake's poison on their fangs makes flesh would couldn't close so that the blood will keep on coming out. and all of the sudden while still holding on or probably strangling the snake all of the sudden I can feel my emotion going up so does with my blood rise and blood just came out like a fountain from that would and the something ridiculous like the snake was opening it's mouth to "drink" the fountain of blood's flow. And my bro just keep on laughing harder and harder.

And I'm awake at that time, and realise a lot of ridiculous stuff like, snake's poison fang are not going to make your blood stop flowing, and that snake DOES NOT drink blood, it's vampire that does or bat in this matter. once again this scares the hell out of me of what vampire are capable and the reason I'm scared of them in the first place. 

Both weird, scary dreams and both involves the animals that I despise the most which are crocodile and snake, there 2 reptiles just creeps me out and I hate them. 

So I was thinking what was the meaning of these dreams and I know that every dreams has it's meaning whether it was relevant or important is 2nd concern. And I can't figure it out, my roommate told me the night before I have the snake dream that getting bitten by a snake in your dream is not a good meaning, then again so does in real life. Plus it hits me that if I bought the snake then wouldn't the snake would be sterilized as in no fangs and no poison certainly and getting bitten by it  wouldn't do much damage beside hurting a bit and that snake actually kills by wrapping it's body towards it's target's body until they're out of life. i mean I know that in dreams not everything gotta make sense, but I just feels ridiculous, and scared and based on all the wrong "facts" and I should know better even in the dream world even though I'm not a dream wizard, but I need more although none of my dreams ever made sense,  the one that actually happen was probably me having a premonition while I was sleeping, so it doesn't count as dream, sort of. 

Ow, well just thought I would share that with all of you and see if the 3rd nightmares continues tonite. Btw if I haven't told any of you I should be leaving this continent in about 60 hours although I really should count the last time I did I managed to forgot my passport for the 1st time in my life ever I forget my passport, I have NEVER did that EVER, especially not when I arrive in the airport and right in front of the check0in counter, un-freaking-believable. the only time my parent didn't remind me or something like that about passport and I forgets them or something like and then it happens again same destination, from SF to sing, although in my defense at the 2nd time I DID check that my passport was in my backpack and then when I put out some books my passport folder was in between the books, and I swear I'll recheck and recheck and recheck my passport as long as I'm leaving the house entering the car, during the car trip, arriving at the airport I'll check check and re-check, bec I don't wanna  put my roommate or my friend through the same trouble again of getting my passport form my house rushing home and rushing back to the airport to try and make it before the check in desk close, although the 1st time failed due to stupid 101 highway which I have always hate being closed down completely  which leads my roommate to completely trapped & I need to take the next day flight. Utter and complete disaster. ohm never mind I shouldn't dwell in the past, like some people who just does that all the time.

If I learned anything last week from my class is that you should ACT like the person you wanna be in the future, so u wanna be a graduate student start acting like you are a graduate student, even though you're not yet, but it will completely put you and yourself into that pathway on becoming that possible future self of you. So I don't wanna act and dwell to the past, I wanna act like the person I'm going to be in the future a professor of top university in Singapore, a Stanford graduate and certainly a very great marriage counselor in this case. I should start acting like it, and the 1st thing I'm gonna do is Grow up, from all the stupid fights I have been having with people, just because I'm on a swing mood a the same time as the other people doesn't mean that I should give an "attitude" although I really didn't feel like I was giving any "attitude", but a lot of people picked them up through online conversation with me so I'm guessing that it was certainly true that I was giving an "attitude" based on what or why is unclear and certainly it didn't matter to me because what's more important is to "fix" whatever is broken before it was lost, not to look at the past and looking for explanation for your own behavior.

So I'm sorry for my "attitude" I mean it. I'm sorry for everything.

Though all I can say is that I have never been very good at controlling whatever emotion I was having or receipting what other people is reacting towards my "attitude". Again, I'm sorry  I'll do better if you guys would give me a next time, I guess.

To grow up is to  live, to learn, and certainly to forgive and let go. And It's not gonna be a piece of cake, but I certainly willing to sacrifice it for the future that I'm GOING to have, I will.

OXOX

Tao Priestess

A Grey's Wedding

On the 100Th episode of Grey's Anatomy, certainly we all though that Meredith and Derek are finally getting married, but the ending was much more elegant and beautiful.

And so now on the Season Finale, They finally did got married. OK, I know I have always said that without marriage being legalized by law, you're not really married, but this raises the question of how about couples that aren't allowed to get married, like same -sex couple, etc. And Meredith&Derek answers my question with their own contract of marriage promises that they wrote on the post it note and then signed. I'm totally agree that they are married not because they want to spend the rest of their lives with each other, but because they managed to signed that contract to be with each other forever, that contract, a written one, not oral one is what I would say their marriage become official Although not legal.

Some people just can't take the step of signing this contract to be with each other forever, they may tell other people that they're married in their mind, but as I said oral contract doesn't give that sense of commitment of not-leaving each other through sickness and health, poor and rich, etc.

Here is the quote of the contract that Derek and Meredith signed:

To love each other even when we hate each other.

No running, ever. Nobody walks out no matter what happen.

Take care of each other even when we're old and smelly and senile.

This is Forever.

Meredith Grey

Derek Shepherd

 

Derek said marriage is made up of vows, commitment, and contract. So this is what they do write these into a blue post it, and both sign them, and post it into Mer's locker. They're finally married everyone. I'm so happy.... if only the ending of the episode wasn't a cliff hanger I would have been estatic with this ending.

My tattoo, my promise is also forever,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

She's coming as fast as she can

OK, How I met your mother is certainly one of the funniest sitcom on TV, replacing the legendary F.R.I.E.N.D.S on TV or was believed to be somewhat like that.

So I relate to Ted Mosebly the main character deeply bec he's also looking for Mrs.Right and the sitcom is about explaining to his future children about the journey on how he was to met their mother, hence the title of the sitcom, How I Met Your Mother.

In last night's episode, Ted ran into in Stella, his ex-fiance(he was dumped at the altar for the ex-fiance's ex lover/father of her daughter) and her boyfriend/ex/baby-daddy, 7 months after the "left at the altar incident"(because Stella finally realize that she's still in love with her ex/baby daddy.) And so this guy, Stella's now lover again is trying to make up& cleanse his guilt of 'stealing" Stella from Ted, moments away before the ceremony. After Ted explained that, he's no longer wants Stella (which is true) he mentions that he doesn't want someone that would leave her at the altar for her ex. And the next day Stella was dumped, and asked Ted to help him talk to Tony, the BF, baby daddy, etc because Tony listen to Ted. And after bailing Barney out from jail and Stella admit that Tony was the one. 

Ted: "Ok, I'm gonna say something out loud that I have been doing a very good job of not saying lately. What you and tony have, what I thought for a second that you and I had, what I know that Lily and Marshall have."

"I want that, I do. I keep waiting for it to happen and waiting for it to happen and I guess I'm just tired of waiting."

"And that is all I'm going to say on that subject."

Stella: " You know I once talk my way out of a speeding ticket." 

Ted: "Really"

S: nodding her head, "I was heading to my paernts house and doing 90 on this country road and I got pulled over. So this cop, gets out of his car and swagger on over like `Young lady, I have been waiting for you all day.` So I looked up and say I'm so sorry officer, I got her as fast as I could."

T: "Hehehe, for real ?"

S: " Nah, just a little joke."

"I know that you're tired of waiting and you might have to wait a little while more, but she's on her way, Ted. And She's getting here as fast as she can."

Ok, so I know right now I sound like the worst hypocrite that I have hate for a while, it's when I tell someone about something and they didn't even take my words for consideration or didn't credit me for my own words and when someone else said the same thing, and they "bought" it I feel so pissed that that person didn't listen to me, but one word from whoever, he/she listens to thenm like a destiny calling. I know my friends, my family and almost everyone I know have told me that I'm to young for children, marriage, serious relationship, or even dating in this matter, but whenever I said to them that I'm tired of waiting, they always said, " Be patient, she'll come someday, just be patient." either that or they would told me to stop waiting and start looking. 

So, here I am doing the same thing that I hate when someone else does it, it's not that I didn't listen to them when they're talking to me, but it's just nothing I haven't heard of before and yes, I'm sorry, but the line here was that  She's coming as fast as she can, well actually it's she's getting here as fast as she can, but I actually like mine better. And even though it has almost the close meaning towards what everybody's been saying to me all this time, but I can feel the different reaction to those words coming from me, my soul it's like my soul knows that the line is true and that she's really coming as fast as she can. And I had my heartache at ease once again, ready to wait, and wait, and wait some more until she's here, just because I believe, no... because I know that she's coming as fast as she can. and I won't complain no more. It was either because of this line or because if my tattoo that symbolizes that I will wait for her forever and ever through space and time. Maybe, it's both, but I do feel better either way.

 

I wanna thank my friends for all the support they hae given me in accompanying me in waiting for her. I'm so blessed to be able to got all of your support through out all these years and I couldn't imagine my life without you guys.

Thank you so much,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

PS: Probably next time I ask, complain, or whining about this stuff, you should say this line (She's coming as fast as she can)

NEVER SAY "Be patient." or I might just rip your mouth out.

I'm just saying...

Women and Beauty

Last night I found a couple of revelation about women and life, etc. It's not that big of a deal or anything, but I'm so glad to hear about them.

Ok, on the season finale of Castle. So Richard Castle went shopping with her family, to find the "perfect" prom dress for his daughter after after a few dresses, the daughter still ask for her father's opinion and the father still said that she looks beautiful no matter what dress she wear (well, take into consideration that in this episode of the murder of a plastic surgeon ,and a "cat-like" woman, literally, in one of the probable suspect is a plastic-surgery addict that have bout 3 face lift until her face look a tranny, and like a cougar, literally.) So of course the father is very concern that his daughter is so imminent to look pretty, on the outside. then the grandmother come with another dress and after the daughter left to the changing room. the grandmother explain to his son, the father about women's insecurity. She said that no matter how much you(men) tried to tell us we look beautiful, we(women) always manage find that 1 flaw that we are born with either it was small breast, flat butt, a wrinkle face, too much lips, etc. We(women) would do almost anything to cover this imperfect part of us, and with the perfect dress, the right shoes, and a touch of make up. We'll believe that we are perfect. And then the daughter/granddaughter come out and it's one of those moment of life that that's you're breath away and realize that she is wearing The Dress that makes her looked Perfect.

So, this scene makes me think and learned about a thing or two, that beauty is IN&OUT. No matter how you look at it, I mean when we know someone for a long time we should be able to see their inner beauty/ugliness in that matter, and the thing about outer beauty is that it's a act to show the inner beauty outside, or they're just trying to cover the inner ugliness that we have by our outer beauty, so we will be fooled long enough by their outer until it's too late to realize their inner ugliness. So then what do I about this new info, since I'm always been a deep follower of inner beauty? I guess I have to balance it out. It's not only about soul-mate, but also genetic-mate. Don't you know that research have shown that we're a physically attracted to people that have the most opposite/different from our own genetics. It's because well the instinct of survival to try not to make a "faulty" new-born by consummating with people that have very close genetic relationship with our own, but also to versify the newborn's genetic so that he would have more survival-rate genetically. Ow, well it's just something I know. So balance between inner and outer beauty = soul-mate+genetic-mate would be your perfect mate. I would say.

Wish me luck to be able to find her someday,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

PS: Did you know that women that uses birth control pills, have this setup messed-up?

So, guess what they're not physically attracted to the person that have the most opposite/different genetic make up than they are. Instead they're attracted to the person that have the most similar genetic make up with them. Certainly, this is one reason we can pin point where incest come from. And you know what happen to baby that was born form incest, technically genetic "faulty" or have some degree of high risk of genetic illness death.

I'm just saying...

Great quotes are back

From the newly fresh and best comeback this season of all TV show: Desperate Housewife

"The fact is, everyone does it. Everyone tries to cover up what they don't want others to see. Women hide their need for commitment. Men disguise their growing insecurity. Wives masked their intents to stay. How did ordinary people hide the truth of their feeling so successfully? All it takes is a friendly gesture... and a plan."

I can't get enough of how true these are, we all have that secret desire that we don't want others to know or share. And not that it's a bad thing or a good thing. It's really depend on what's the intention behind deceiving others. Not to mention somethings are worth sharing either it was to fix your communication skill with one another or just a plain lame old joke to break the "ice."

Your intentions are for you to know,to have, and to hold, but to deceive others you need more than just intention, you need to act. And some things you do might be unforgivable. unforgettable or maybe even plain ridiculous, but just think very carefully when you're gonns do this because you might not always get what you wish, and you'll be wasting your time and energy all for "almost" nothing.

Wishing you all the best on whatever you're doing or gonna do,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

Break ups and separation

OK, whoever have watch the movie the Break Up? Well, it's certainly not how a usual break up would go, since couple that break up shouldn't live together after wards. Most cases the separate their living situation and etc.

And I know, me who have never been in a relationship ever, can't possibly know how hard a break up is, I can only imagine and I'm scared to even think about it. that someone you love, someone you care about, someone who you gave your heart and soul to will leave you, It's a nightmare coming true, I certainly think so.

BUT for all of those who's breaking up keep these question in mind, what's the reason for the break-up? Then follow up with these questions:

-Is that reason is something you guys fight about A LOT? 

-Is this reason have always been there since the start of the relationship? 

-Is it something that you can't accept about your partner or is it something about you that your partner can't accept?

Truth is for what ever the reason is, if you answer yes to one of these follow up question, then your relationship might not be something you would like to save or get back to, for this moment.

Here are the reason why:

1. If you fight a lot with your partner about the same thing over and over again about the same thing, then you might need to communicate with your partner about this certain topic, and whether this topic is more important for you and you're willing to sacrifice your relationship for it?

2. If this reason have been there from the beginning of the relationship if it does, then technically this topic when discussed early on in the relationship would have save you a lot of energy and time from this last relationship of yours, but if not then, you and your partner might have just grown apart, but either way it might not be a good reason to get back together again.

3. If this reason was something that you refuse to accept about your partner or otherwise, then you have THESE options: 

+Accept them for who they are for the better, worse, &worst if you wanna get back together with him/her. 

+Change the part that you don't like about YOURSELF, but change it for YOU, because YOU want to, NOT because of someone else (the more reasoning can be find on my previous post)

If you can't do BOTH of these, or even one, I would suggest, never to go back to him/her again, bec you'll just be making that Break-up, get back together,Break-up again, and get back again, and so on and so on. Believe me it's not something very healthy that you want to do in a relationship, because unless something change like one of you take one or both the options above, it'll just be this break-up and get back together cycle for the rest of your relationship-life

Ow, well just thought I might try to help whether you wanna accept my advices or not are all up to you,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

17Again is so good I'm considering to be my NO:1

AWESOME

It might beat my NO.1 of all time The Wedding Date

Marriage & Motherhood

You know this two topics is just close to my heart and my favorites topics, which is why the latest new episodes of Oprah is just very likable to me. It's about motherhood on Monday, and it's very very funny, but also gives the saying, " you're not alone on this" because you, young mothers are not alone, all the things that you have felt on the becoming a new mother are all normal and believe me that you are not alone whatever that you're feeling as a new parent, check www.oprah.com for more info and access to mother's video blog confessions, which some are hilariuous.

Some got to oprah.com for marriage diccussions with sex therapist, and marriage counseling it's was awesome. And I talk so much about marriage counseling that I cna't seem to start talking about it in my blog since there were so much to talk about, I love this topic so, just submit any hypothetical questions(since none of my known friends are married) about marrige or relationship and I'll answer them the best that I can, but there is this quote by Justin Timberlake about marriage that everyone should listen to. He said that the marrige vows, for better or for worse is ...(bs), what should be on the marriage vows is for worse and worst. This is completely true, I mean last week I was just diccusing with my new friend here , yes it's a friend, not a "friend" about how I don't like it here being alone and all, when he enjoyed his freedom, I said to him that, "I'm the kind of person that can handle being at home for a month without going out at all, I certainly can enjoy being alone, but I had enough of being alone, I'm tired of it. And you knwo what I'm especially tired of all the freedom that we're getting, I GOT NO ONE TO SHARE MY FREEDOM, MY HAPPINESS WITH. " And that is the truth. So the quote marriage is for worse and worst is clearly absolutly yes, but since I haven't got that worse or worst condition besides what I'm having right now, I would also share the happiness somedays in the future, yet I also completely agree that marriage and relationship's are on trial during worse and worst time. 

So I think marriage vows should be for better, worse, and worst...., don't you agree?

OXOX

Tao Priestess

Sound like an episode of gossip girl

Ok,it's really a true story and not a recap of any episode of any Tv shows.

My good friend and I, Young Majesty was outraged at me bec I thought of his deeply true life story was an april fool's joke. It's simpl another friend, Windy was telling me the similar story that let me to believe him up until he said april's fool. But this is no reason for me to behave like a jerk and kicking my friends, Young Majesty when he's down. snd He's probablygoing to diown me from being his friend ever again forever and ever, and I deserve all of it. don't you think?

You know 1 thing I hve certainly learned over the years about the future, was that I can hope for all the best, but I also have to plan for the worst. So, please don't say everything is going to be alright, bec I do hope that it will be , but I also have to face the fact that I will be losing one of my best friend soon, then again I also get the feeling that I have probably lost him for a while already. Things happen wheteher you like it or not, but life just moves on. I already appologized to him in the way that I knew how, and wishes for all the perk in my life that he would forgive me , but I'll never know up until I know.

Frankly, I don't know why he would be rampaging about me calling myself a btter psychc than he is, when I never feels like I do, and don't feel like I showed any way that I was. And most of what he said about me being a "stupid" cupid that's desperate, is also true, I won't deny that I 'm desperate, and I'm sure you all also have notice it. You can aaccused me of all  I want, but I also speak the truth mostly in my own blog, I rarely ever feels the need to lie, and this is not a bullshit. I know that there's this thing about me that just makes people never takes me seriously no matter what I do, it's not their fault I know tht it's just that I never seems like I cna be serious, most likely because I am serious most of the time and most people can't handle me and my seriousness and their mind just went into a simpler way, they though I was being funny,a nd I don't blame then I wish sometimes that I was less serious most of the time, and I can be funny more of the time, and just enjoy life, but I have come to accept me the way I am... and I'll do my best to be ab;e to feel love, be sensitive and feel what other are feeling symphetize with them, but I do believe I have my limit and even though how much I push I might never be like you guys, normal emotion-feeler human. And I'm sorry for me being me, I wish I could do better, but I'm not sorry for me accepting myself the way I am.

Wish you would forgive me....

So, gonna watch I Love You, Man & Adventureland

ok, I'm gonna talk about 2 movies I just watch this week, ok 3 including last week, and just that probably and the other two I'm planning on watching.

Ok, 1st Miss March this a very light movie, just a comedy. Worth watching? Probably on DVD.

2nd, Knowing ok, just be sure to be ready, bec this movie I believe should be into HORROR category then Sci-fi. i completely dislikes it. Not recommending it, seriously.

3rd I just watch it in 3D, Monsters Vs Aliens, it's HILARIOUS, I swear it's unbelievably funny, I swear couldn't stop cracking up. And so many star voices it's amazing, I guess I'm not that much of cartoon or kids movies, so dont really have that much experience with watching kiddy's movies, the other cartoon that I like was Over The Hedge and I was also get dragged into that one luckily I like them all so far...

4th one I Love you, man have come out for about 2 weeks , but since I'm waiting for my "friend" that said he wasn't to watch it too, but of course I completely already suspected that he will bailed out, just hate it I always fall into his bullshit, his promises. Huh, I guess I'm so desperate about being not alone in the cinema, Goddess. I'm pathetic.

5th one ok, Adventureland, I heard lots of great review about this movie, but been planning on watching it anyway since Kristen Stewart in it, DA! Can't wait tomorow, well tonite, there's a special previewing, on 12.01 a.m. friday 2 april, so I'm hitting that one no matter if a friend comes along to accompany me or not.

Other's I'm waiting to come out:
-17 again
-the ugly truth
-The Proposal
-All about steve
-Harry potter 6
-New Moon
-so so much, hopefully really I got to watch them all.

Plus, dicussing KCA, Kids Choice Awards.
the host is rock, literally The Rock.
ok, my favorite moments definitely favorit movie : High School Musical 3 , Of Course , DA!
favorite Movie Actress: Vannesa hudgens
Favorite TV actress: Selena Gomez, I could cry all my favorite won, hiks4 I'm so touched I got my wish to come true.

Anyway Enjoy the movie in my list ok and don't forget to watch He's Not That Into you,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

ok,it's been almost 3 weeks

Goddess, it's almost 3 weeks. I can't freaking believe it was just almost 3 weeks what the hell, I feel like it's been 2months or so..., but you know how I manage to know it's only been almost 3 weeks?
because I got my tattoo almost 3 weeks ago and the parlor told me to use healing ointment(salep) for 3 weeks, for 3 times a day minimum, seriously unbelievable. Not because I have to wear 3 times a day on the area where my boxer always touch, which means the ointment is always smeared away, which I think just becoming a waste, which lead me to lazily only wear them 2 times max on this third week, which makes me believe I should pro-long the ointment use for 4weeks or more for 2 times a day.

Ok, times just moves so freaking slowly this year, and I hate it, I really do I don't enjoy my time here, and feeling just like time moves oh...so freaking slowly is just ugh...killing me. Other than that, also last week was my spring break and I got NOTHING, nothng to do, nothing to wake up for, nothing to life for, and I feel so bored until I feel the need to get out of the house, IN WHICH demension do I EVER though of getting out of the house unless I have to, NEVER, mostly never. Seriously it was that bad, plus somehow I didn't even get time to update this blog of mine even after so many people ask about it... I can't believe it... My life's a hell, thank goddess school start again.(C what I mean, I'm even glad that school have started again)

This new me is not all that great, but it was to be expected, but i know I think I'm so much better than last year still. Just wish this year could be so much better than last year, much much better. Ow, and I know this is kind of gross, but my tattoo's skin do have peel off, so this is how it's going to look life for the rest of my life, and also the reason why I didn't take picture up until now,. One other thing also was kicking me in the groin, why the hell didn't I take the picture just when it's just done, why... why... why?

Ow, well I can't return the time that I have missed, but I certainly will make up for whatever I owe or missed last year, nad that's my promise.

The pic of my tattoo is on my profile picture. Hopefully soon I can make some full body shot with a really good HD camera.

Hope you guys don't mind vulgar pictures,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

PS: LOL, but I am serious about taking some vulgar pictures reall. Just try and close your eyes if you're not ready to see me in "those" kind of picture in all "position". LOL, but seriously though, I am seriously planning it, just not sure I can find a photographer that's willing to. Wakakakak.

My TAT's here. I wish it could be better, but we can't always have everything that we want in life,right?!

Ok, so all of you that's been wondering about how is it feel like to actually get a TAT, ok, let me describe it as detailed as possible before I drop dead faint from my lack of sleep.

Ok, whoever,said the the pain of getting a tat is about as painful as being in hell, is a complete idiot. I'm not saying he's wrong, but he's still and idiot. It hurts DA!, but as for being like in hell, are you kidding me.

I'm the only one in my family that have very low pain threshold, and I don't even scream at all, except for the occasional spray to moisture the area  that was just been "sewn" without any thread but with ink. And it actually feel just like being sewn like an actual sewing machine, and actual rapid needle puncture to your skin. Seriously, if you're usual to donor blood or immunization shot, flu shot,etc.  It just doesn't feel much difference only the the needle that went through your skin was much2 shorter and it goes rapidly. I guess the closest pain I can describe to what I felt was probably something like slicing your skin with a fruit knife or something like that, really doesn't hurt as much as it sound, I swear, then again I refused to look until it's done and cover my attention to the TV, but as usually can still feel every single thing, but it's really not the bad, really. and since it moves around I noticed that the pain in some area was more unbearable then the other area, I guess even the skin in an area like around your right thigh have like 1-5 kind of level for pain-resistance, I'm glad it's over, but it's not a bad experience to have really, I would say I'd like a second one, hahahhaha, too bad I ain't got no reason for it, so... not going to.... for now...

I really I felt this has been a great day, I would do this day all over again if i ge tthe chance to, so I have nadage covering it, I was told to leave it overnight and use ointment for the next 2 weeks to smooth the healing process. i'm not allowed to pressure the area, or exposed the area to diregt sunlight, and if skin start's swells I have to leave it alone, so that it'll peel it self off.

I'll wash it with a soft soap tomorrow mornin, and that will be all.

Although I feel like the feather is wonderfully beautiful and the sign was not exactly maroon like color but more like rez+black very dark red-light red brownish. I was kinda hoping the the feather could be more like white-lavender-ish as the original feather so, I dunno if I were to go back and add a bit more color to it or not,let's just see how it is one the morning after shower.

Happy White Day,

OXOX

Tao Priestess

Dead and Gone

Ok, so first of all as usual i'm promoting my new favo song, which just happen to be hiphop/rap by T.I. featuring Justin Timberlake, of course you guys shou;dn't be wondering what other reason I would actually listen to this song except Justin Timberlake, DA! But the song is quite relevant to my "situation" that's coming up this 14 March of 1009 as you guys would know it's a white Day and the day I would get my TATs.

Ok, I haven't really been blogging bec I don't feel like anyone was actually reading since there's any comment that was left for my last 10 post or so, and it's OK. I completely understand that people have their own life to attend instead of reading mine, I get it, but just bec I get used to this blog being my Open diary I feel like if nobody reads it then why even bother writing, but I'm trying to be a optimist, and still believe at least someone still read, hopefully.

Ok, now let's go to the main point I made this post, as i mention up there I'm getting my TATs in about 31hours from now, and I'm sort of nervous scared ,yes, but NEVER even cross my mind to cancel or change or even think that this thing would be a mistake, not even a single second. so I'm sorry I know MOST of you are not very pleasant toward this idea of my getting a TATs, but it's my reason and my full-round decision that let me still "gunning" through this idea. Yes, some of you think it's ugly, some of you think/hope that I'll regret getting it someday(probably so that you can say, "I TOLD YOU SO.") , but I don't care, frankly because I just don't feel that this would be a mistake even later in the future bec I have a TRUE reason, not bec I wanna show off or being cool, I just wanna do it for me, my own selfish reason.

Any WHO, don't want to see it, RELAX i'm not going to post any pics or even give you guys any UNLESS you really asked, and if everybody asked then I'll post it here , but doubtfully will happen. and Whatever you do please just DON'T tell my FAMILY, my parents especially as I mention my TATs aren't for show off, so I would definitely keep it hidden even from my parents. Thanks for your cooperation. Wish the best for me please even if you do think I'm making a mistake, but as I always said I would like to make my own mistakes and takes complete responsibility for them even for the rest of my life, especially since that 's what ADULT DO. And I certainly WANT to be one

As the song goes, the old part of me is(will be) dead and gone and the new me will(is going to) be alright.
OXOX
Tao Priestess

PS:Oooo,hey I've been travelin' on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone… dead and gone…
Ooooooo I ve been travelin' on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone… dead and gone… eeyy

(J.T.)
I turn my head to the east… I don’t see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west… still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
The old me is dead and gone, the new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east… I don’t see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west… still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
The old me is dead and gone, the new me will be alright

Oooo,hey I've been travelin' on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone… dead and gone…
Ooooooo I ve been travelin' on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone… dead and gone… eeyy

He's Not That Into You is so the best movie, EVER!

Love Actually can kick its own ass, that's right I went there.
Plz don't think just because you mix in a multi-love-story in an all-star cast on a Chrismas event movie, that you won't get beaten. time to step down bec the best multi-love-story with an all-star cast without the X-mas factor, but add in some real life dating&marriage drama comedy is my No.1 BEST romantic comedy movie, EVER. {He's Not That Into You}

it should have been clear to me that this movie is going to be AMAZINGLY BRILIANT if only I were to actually read the book before, I think.

This movie is definitely worth dragging your butt out from the bed,wear some T-shirt and drive yourself of the movie, ALL ALONE.

And the best part about this movie unlike any other generally liked/loved romantic drama movies is that it wasn't a drama it was a comedy, which is the one I always prefer. The words,the acting,the drama were all so naturally real that I really don't feel that it was a dramatization,but more like a reality movie. it was just AWESOME&Briliant.

Go watch it,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

PS: I better get the book to my collection, SOON.

Let's all F U !

Fired up!is hands down the funniest movie I have watched this year, I swear I couldn't stop laughing, and it's not because the movie is ridiculous funny like Scary movie,etc, but this movie is genuinely very funny especially because most of everything in this movie do happen in real life, I think.

Well, probably I just said that bec me, my brothers, and my cousins actually did memorize every single line from the movie Bring It On! I swear, I was laughing so hard remembering that is exactly what we did once we bought the Vcd we watch it over over and over again p until we manage to recite every single line from the movie. And the irony in the movie is pretty predictable of course, but still classic awesome story, I'm not complaining, but seriously the funny part just comes so naturally as if it wasn't even tried, suer hilarious, a must watch I would say. I pretty much like all the bring it on sequels, and Man do those women can stretch, seriously watching the movie would probably be like crashing to heaven for most "pig" like men as the main characters. Damn, a seriously must watch I would say. Super funny. Really couldn't stop laughing.

FIRED UP! in cinema starting from 20Feb in here

As Chelsea Handler would say, "Go watch it, everybody..."
OXOX
Tao Priestess

PS: Next week Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun Lee is coming out everybody, so wanna watch Kristen Kreuk as Chun Lee. Should be awesome, I think

Lately, I've been thinking...

(hahaha,I took the title from Chelsea Lately's new segment, so freaking hilarious.)

So lately,I realized that I'm being 'guided' by my best friend, Young Majesty even though he might not even realize due to busy playing Rebirth Ragnarok, and I don't blame him. he got tired of reading this blog of mine bec of the long-lectures that I was giving every single time, so I tried to shorten my words,so that makes ,my blog goes on and on and on.... Just like right now.

Again I wanna thank him bec I feel a lot of little changes in me that was primarily made just by reading his blog,making his words into my head,heart,&soul. i feel like a whole lot of 'better' person already bec of him,and I might have never said this over the years that we have been friends, but thanks a lot,Young majesty for your friendship,your support,for believing in me even when no one does. i don't know how I have made through my life before I met you per say. thank you. i wish all the best for you a and I know that you can achieve your dreams just don't give up on it. I promise you that.ok

Luv you,
OXOX
tao Priestessnd

What does your friendship mean to you?

This is a quiz that a took from here
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx
And here's my result

You value your friendships: 90%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

I'm always here for you,
OXOX
Tao Priestess

Post V-day

Ok,so after another not so lucky Friday d 13th, last weekend we, I mean you all celebrate Valentine Day on the saturday, I suppose.

Me, on the other hand not very big on V-day. and I think everybody that knows me already know that.

First obvious reason, I'm alone with no one to love. and yes u can celebrate V-day w/ other people that u're not in-love with like your friends and family, too bad none of my family is here with me, and none my friends do either. Also the rest of the people here take V-day so seriously that they just don't celebrate with other people than the one they're in love w/.

2nd ly, I follow the Japanese or the sia version of Valentine where V-day was broken down to 2 days, V-day on 14Feb,where the Girls would admit their feeling to a guy she likes and etc. 2nd day is the White day where

Books, I'm interested to read

1. The Shopaholic series by Sophia Kinsela (already got into the 3rd book)[can't wait for the movie, Confession of a Shoppaholic coming out this V'day]

2. The Truth About Cheating by Dr.Gary Neuman (on Oprah today)
->Why men stray and what you can do prevent it.
+1 out of 3(2.7) men will cheat and most their wives will never know about it
+92% of men who cheat said they cheat for non-sexual reasons.

I'm very interested to read this bec of course no name droppings, but I do know people that are cheating behind their partner, and probably I should ge them this book for their B'day present or their partner's B'day, well I'll get get some extra copies to be given out for usefull reason. Whihc reminds me I need to get another copy of Men from Mars and Women are from Venus.

3. He's Not That Into You (Amazing best seller already ut soince like forever, definitely gotta get me a copy and read it before I watch the movie although probably not gonna happen seeing as the movie already out since like last friday.)

4. Can You Keep A Secret by Sophia Kinsela (I told that this book is superb by EVERYONE who have read it, and I already bought me a copy just haven't got me time to read it, for the last 3 years I have been searching for it, I finally found it the day of Chinese New Year, likeI said my luck is definitely changing for the better and I like it.)

5. Men from Mars and Women are from Venus "series" (already got the 1st one but there's a bunch of theme like Mars&Venus in Bed,Mars&Venus Dating, Mars&Venus in a relationship,etc. you get the point) I surely wanna have them all.

Hopefully this list can inspire u guys to try read new books that doesn't usually interest u to read, plus if possible read them in English, there's just som much stuff that gets lost in trnaslation and it improves your english a lot,so do it. also, I don't know if they even translate these book into indonesian.

Happy reading,
OXOX
Tao Priestess